MiSErY

unspokendeath @ 2002-11-05T00:10:00

2002-11-05T05:27:21Z

this weekend amy is coming home...ames, bowling and 8 mile-saturday, me u brandon, and some other boy? Yes? LoL. im a dork. I wanna do that boy brian amison. I want to do him like I've never done anyone ever before. But anyways.

Saturday was ultra cool times. Sunday was cool too. just because i saw pretty boy. haha. today was goodtimes, cuz i slept til 3. and then my friend came over and watched freddy got fingered.. hahaha. you know who you are man. so covered. tomorrow will be goodtimes too. just beacuse i said so. wednesday will be hardcore blah. thursday i have to babysit. friday i have to find something to do. with someone i dont know who. but i want to do drugs. any kind, i dont care. lol. DRUGS. DRUGS. DRUGS. I wanna pop some caffeine pils or sumthin, maybe ill get some xanax from mommy dearest. =o) anyone wanna do drugs with me???? it'll be goodtimes.amy i think you should come home friday and then like, spend the night at my house. we can do drugs. lol. but dont tell your mommy. then we can sneak out and so can brandon, or or or!!!!!! OHHH I KNOW!!!!!I'll steal money from mommy and ronnie. we can get a hotel. and get drizunk. and take drugs. yes? YES?! YES?!?!?! yeahhh dude. but anyways, im gonna go now. im sure everyone is done hearing about my obsessin with drugs

woohoo, goodtimes!

2002-11-03T07:08:22Z

this weekend has been a blast!!

Thursday, went to steohs house, gordo came over then we took sid out trick or treating, went to the bowling alley so we could smoke ciggarettes. Lol, i had my vampire fangs on, it was goodtimes...we rented a movie and went back to stephs, we watched dusk til dawn 3. cheesiest vampire movie, in the world. we talked alot anbout stuff and matt(stephs ex) was acting like an asshole, but it was funny!

Friday, went to the bowling alleyt for a ferw, came home and my friend came and picked me up and we went to a party at his house. i got so wasted i puked everywhere, but it was all worth it!

Saturday, went to the bowling alley til 5, rented interveiw with the vampire, blair witrhc 2, and van wilder. watched half of interveiw with the vampire, and got a phone call from brandon, he wanted to know if i wanted to go bowling with him and brian...so i said yeah and they came and got me, we took caffeine pills, and me and brian smoked. i beat them a frew times, but i dont really rememebr much of it at all. it was fun though. then i just got back..tomorrow im going to the bowling alley, maybe gordo will be there, maybe not..but who knows.

now im fucked up retarted hardcore up the ass like whoa...and i cant fdall asleep. but im gonna jet so i can bug people online...night all!

Muah!
*~Katie~*

unspokendeath @ 2002-10-30T23:01:00

2002-10-31T04:17:07Z

I want a snickers ice cream bar but ronnie, the fucking fuck, ate them all.

I have nothing to write about. I need to get another man.

these 'boys' that i know are nothing special, all they care about its getting a peice. well fuck them. ill find a nice guy, who cares about me, and doesn't want to rush into the whole sex thing, cuz i don't need to be having anymore of that random sex.all i want is a nice guy, guess ill have to look for someone in like there 30's...lol.

anywhoo, im gonna go find some popsicles, so ill be going..

HAPPY HALLOWEEN ALL!

unspokendeath @ 2002-10-30T00:33:00

2002-10-30T05:53:33Z

Steph is so adorable! She always is thinkin about me...today she brought me this little journal with a scary girl on it and it says "what are girls made of?" and then it saus "tattoos, bikes, and starting fights" it's so cute! and she got me a dracula pen that boxes, and the vampire teeth that glue on to your own...shes so adorable, i love her!

Thursday were takin sid out trick or treating, and me and steph are gonna dress up, im gonna be a vampire of course..oh and she got me false eyelashes for my vampireness! lol!Gordo might come up to see steph, so i get to see him too, hes one hardcore mother fucker man!

Friday is the shindig at my friends house. should be good times.

I'm really upset that Cringe isn't playing halloween, i was so excited. me and steph might go to macomb mall on thursday too, at one of the bookstores, they have a whole sectino of books on ghosts and vampires and witched and all that, i wanna buy some books, i also want to get the book of the dead, not sure how to pronounce it, but i beileive h.p lovecraft wrote it. ill proabbly just borrow it from steph after shes done with it.

im so bleeding all over the place. SAWEET.

We might hang out with chris halloween too, cuz he might not have nuthin 2 do...so thats cool ess.

well kiddies, im off to go write joshers an email...laters.

unspokendeath @ 2002-10-28T13:47:00

2002-10-28T19:07:31Z

well uhhh....yeah. im bored. makin texas toast cheese bread..mmmm! im hungary.

i wanna go to indiana to see josh...mommy wont let me though. i'm mad. BAHH to her.

k this is all..bye

...

2002-10-27T22:11:59Z

remind me never to go to a baptism and then out to lunch with 'family members'...baptism wasn't bad...i got to stay in the car beacuse i don't beilieve in the whole thing. so i slept because i had a major hangover. lunch at Mr. B's. Terrible. the only goodthing about that was shannon and ted being there. Me and Shannon made fun of every person there...being all snobby and bitch like..yeah.

Last night was fun. It wasn't the greatest halloween party but colette and Dana and Colettes fiance were all there...so they made it goodtimes...got bit by them.fun fun times. got majorly drunk and smoked a joint for the first time in like a month...i was fucked up royally. lauren ratted my hair..it was so huge. AFRO.

now im home...suckey sunday, moms in ohio, ronnies at the horse races..and im not babysitting anymore. but im getting burger king at like 8 or so. YAY!

got some magazines and an awesome hat. it's goodtimes.

well im off to take a nap. it's been a long long week.

unspokendeath @ 2002-10-26T00:16:00

2002-10-26T04:32:11Z

The Lost Boys is on. my favorite movie of all time. i could be out having fun right now. but im not, im sitting at home...it sucks.

Tomorrow I'm going to Laurens mom's house for a halloween partay. should be fun..were gonna all get wasted. goodtimes like whoa.

today was a big disappointment. i knew it was gonna be on thursday morning. cuz yeah.kinda sucks, cuz i was lookin forward to it. but shit happens right...whateva.

it reaks of burnt toast.

Since Cringe isn't playing on halloween anymore..i was thinkin of going out with my other friends...but i might still just hang out with steph...maybe since the show is cancelled we can all get wasted at matts or somethin...theres gotta be somethin with the name matt and hangin out in the garage...lol. both matts i know hang out in the garage..goodtimes.

shit faced here i come!!! YAY!

I miss hangin out with lauren...but i really can't stand the way she makes a good mood go bad with her disappointing stories..i mean we all have problems, but do you have to always waste a good thing..jesus. i hope its not like that tomorrow...

I miss my chrissyfer. =o(. i dunno why, but im going through chris withdrawls...its craziness...i guess ill have to live with it..maybe lauren will call him over tomorrow..ahh sheesh.

im gonna go watch my movie now...maybe read some random livejournals..find some friends....goodtimes? I think yes.

unspokendeath @ 2002-10-23T17:06:00

2002-10-23T21:26:49Z

why do i just randomly feel depressed.
why dont i ever know why im depressed.
i just sit. and stare. and cry.

i need to get it together.

ahh livejournal surveys....something else to fil up your screen!`

2002-10-22T06:38:25Z

Name: Katie
Birthdate: April 26th. 1986
Sex: FE Male
Location:my house
What does your journal name mean: it means im gonna kil you and nobody is gonna hear about it..

Seven things that scare you:
1. My mom
2. My moms boyfriend
3. bottle taps
4. dentures
5. Clizowns
6. uhh. cinemax porn..so cheesy
7. Doctors offices

Seven things that make you laugh:
1. Amy
2. Chris
3. Matt
4. my laugh
5. cinemax porn
6. brandons laugh
7. my moms dumb-assness...and my sisters sexual noises

Seven things you love:
1. cinemax porn
2. my friedns
3. cable modem i <3 you!
4. My couch
5. burger king
6. mountain dew
7. giving head...since you know..im a "head hoe"

Seven things *or people* you hate(dislike!):
1. cinemax porn
2. empteevee
3. Shiting...sometimes it hurts
4. when burger king isnt open and your hungry
5. big noses
6. Nasty teeth
7. My bathroom...it makes funny noises when your on the pot

Seven things you don't understand:
1. guys
2. The way my mom says "god damn it kate"
3. cinemax porn
4. why the world turns
5. why these damn dogs wont die
6. my mom...i think shes a lesbian in hiding
7. why cringe isnt playing on halloweeeeeeen =o(

Seven things on your COMPUTER desk:
1. can of diet coke
2. can of diet coke
3. an ashtray
4. my cigarettes
5. napkins
6. a flashlight
7. computer stuff

Right now you are:
1. bored
2. Typing.
3. drinking diet coke
4. watching cinemax porn
5. thinking what im doing
6. cracking my neck
7. being confused

Seven facts about you:
1. I watch cinemax porn
2. I am a crack head
3. I'm a head hoe
4. I can sing
5. i like to make bodily noises in my sleep
6. i am uh....stoner
7. i dream about furniture eating me

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. whatch cinemax porn, for like 24 hours straaight
2. have a slurpee machine..in my room
3. go kareoking
4. get a tattoo...or like 70 of em
5. meet OZZY
6. kill a squirrel with a car
7. Be in a cinemax porn haha

Seven things you can do:
1. Make people laugh
2. qatch cinemax porn
3. roll my tounge thrice
4. give a good blow job..lol
5. think of seven things i can do
6. laugh
7. Rsing

Seven Things You Can't Do:
1. go potty number 2 in a publec rest area
2. not laugh at amy
3. Stop being confused.
4. talk
5. roller skate
6. not watch cinemax porn
7. not shave my face...long story

Seven Famous People You Want (To Meet):
1. OZZY
2. my husband pico
3. ronald mcdonald..so i can shoot him
4. dave matthews
5. BEAN
6. moby...hes so....hahaha
7. the people on cinemax porn

Top 7 songs people should give a listen:
1. People are Strange by The Doors.
2. Asshole by Dennis Leary.
3. Rape Me by Nirvana.
4. the songs on cinemax porn when the people SCREW
5. tiny dancer by elton john
6. america by simon and garfunkle
7. any song by cat stevens

Top 5 things that turn you on about girls-
1. they
2. dont
3. turn
4. me
5. on

Top 5 movies you watch all the time -
1. Who Framed Roger Rabbit
2. bean
3. almost famous
4. cinemax porn
5. boogie nights

Top 5 things you say the most -
1. chris, roadtrip
2. goodtimes
3. probably
4. jesus
5. fucked up

CURRENTS...

Current Dress: no dress...dress bad
Current Makeup: black eyeliner and stuff
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: no music is on
Current Taste: Burger king
Current Hair: up
Current Annoyance: This
Current Smell: my top lip
Current thing I ought to be Doing: watching cinemax porn
Current Favorite Artist: elton john
Current Favorite Group: dunno
Current CD in Stereo: none
Current DVD In Player: dont have dvd...but bean is in the vhs
Current Color Of Toenails: none
Current Worry: when the porns comin back on
Current Crush: dont have one
Current Favorite Celebrity: myself

LAST PERSON...

You Talked to: amy
You Hugged: brandon before we left his house
Instant messaged: mike
You Yelled At: amy, for lying
You Had A Crush On: I really dont know
Who Broke Your Heart: the cinemax porn guy

FAVORITE...
Food: burger king
Drink: mountain dew
Color: blue
Album: almost famous
Shoes: slippers
Candy: thats yucky right now
Animal: Shnakes
TV Show: will and grace/friends
Movie: cinemax porn movies
Dance: The Michael Jackson Thriller dance.
Veggie: TALES
Fruit : grapes..the purple/red ones

ARE YOU...
Understanding: yeah
Open-minded: ywah
Arrogant: naw
Insecure: yeah
Interesting: Very.
Hungry: hell no
Friendly: Yup.
Smart: street wise..yes...book wise...no
Moody: ehh..im a girl, what do you think
Childish: Often
Independent: ehh
Hard working: Not at all.
Organized: Guess again.
Healthy: Not in the slightest..
Emotionally Stable: With most things.
Shy: Pending on the situation.
Difficult: Rarely.
Attractive: eeh
Bored Easily: Incredibly.
Messy: Even more so.
Thirsty: Yes.
Responsible: When I need to be.
Obsessed: Only with certain things.
Angry: At times.
Sad: At others.
Happy: Indeedy.
Trusting: All the time.
Ill: Not right now.
Talkative: When I'm nervous/hyper.
Legal: When it comes to....
Original: I have my moments.
Different: I am different. Just like everyone else.
Unique: Redundant quiz, you are.
Ignored: Yup.
Reliable: For the most part.
Content: Very content right now. I am at complete nirvana.
Optimisticic: On most subjects.
Deep thinker: That gets me into trouble all the time.
Self-disciplined: Yeah.
Sleepy: To no end.
Lonely: At the moment, but not overall.

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
Kill: No one.
Get Really Drunk With: Quite a few people are on that list.
Tickle:ijsabfihb
Look Like: me.
Be Like: Myself.
Talk To: No one in particular.

AND
- Computer Wise
MSN Name: Do not have one.
AIM name: pokesmot713...unseendarkness66
Buddy Icon: uppside down cross
Deadjournal: Yeah, but it's nothing.
Quilt Cover: What does this have to do with my computer?
Carpet: cream?
Walls: White, many posters, black light ink, stickers, dents. The usual teen room, really.
Posters: pot and bands
Appliances/Furniture: The usual room stuff.

most of these were not myanswers at the end..becuse i got bored of typing goodbye to you

hey there kiddies....

2002-10-10T21:40:06Z

hello....im babysitting. bored outta my mind...but its all gravy...

tomorrow is gonan be sooo much fun, im going to see may with brandon tomorrow yaya!!!!! were leaving at like 12:30...so well be there at like 3 or so.. goodtimes, were gonna drink im gonna try to find some capt. morgans here, cuz im sure they have some..i mean thats all shelly srinks so..its a good chance. which is so awesome! but even if i sont get any capt. morgans, we still got that bottle of whiskeyyyyyyyy! were gonna get so drunk. im so excited to see amy..YAY! its weird cuz i didnt se her like all summer and i mean i missed her but i mean i didnt..and now its sorta the same but i miss her..i dunno its messed up.. anyways..AMISON I LAVA YOU!!!! hahaha

i need a ciggarette so bad...GRRRRRR. but tomorrow im gonna get 2 packs...actually im thinkin of gettin 3 packs...just cuz i can...ill get 10 more bucks from my momma... and then ill have 30..and i can get 3 packs. and yeah goodtimes. anyways..im gonna go watch these kids maybe...or not but you know...later all

unspokendeath @ 2002-10-08T00:25:00

2002-10-08T04:46:49Z

woe is me.

had a majorly fun fun weekend...YAY. friday i styed the night at amys and went to the movies with her joel brandon and alicia, saw stealing harvard, i saw germs and trevert there..it was an ok movie, but nothing special..then we went back to amys...me amy and brandon just talked about everything in the garage for like 3 hours or so, then he went home and me and amy went in..it was like 2 when we got in, and me and her stayed up until like 6:30 and talke the whole time, it was fun...Saturday we spent all day making plans for that night...which was awesome! we went to comfort inn in mt clemens, it was me matt, amy and brandon, got completely trashed. it was so fun. Im so glad everything is worked out between brandon and everyone...its nice. i have major respect for hm cusz like, he took everynoe that had a problem with him and talked to them seperatly.

im supposed to be going up to grand valley with brandon on friday to go se amy, then come home on saturday cuz amys moms coming up to see her...but yeah..saturday my sister is coming home from vegas for 9 days, im so excited to see her..I cant wait, i miss her lots and lots.

im watching the cell, its freakin me out like whoa. ahh well.

i stole a bottle of champagne, a bottle of brandy, and a bottle of canadian club whiskey. the brandy and the cvhampagne is gone, but we didnt make it to the whiskey, so thats for this weekend if i end up going.

i just stole this awesome gold eyeshadow from meijer a few hours ago...and this really pretty brown lipstick...you put on the lipstick and the fuckin put a dab of the gold i the middle of your bottom lip, it makes ytour lips bigger and it looks rreally pretty.

yeah blabbering is boring, so im off to go blabber to someone else...buh bye.

quizzes to keep my mid away.....

2002-10-04T06:54:52Z

What box do you get put in?
brought to you by Quizilla

which eye are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

uhh, im like the farthest thing from a bitchy slut dude...thats so wrong...

i wanna come back...

2002-10-04T06:30:08Z

for some reason, i got this really weird feeling...and i started to cry just a second ago..i miss my friends from chippewa...i miss gym with leah...i miss noelles sarcasticness....if thats a word..i miss...i miss everything. i miss lunch, walking around talking to everyone...i miss people yelling my name as i walked down the halls...i miss my gay ass locker...i miss dean dean the pimp machine...i miss the little wall where everyone knew you could find someone to talk to there..i miss jason forton and his little dances...i miss sitting next to matt in bniology and laughing at the crocidile hunter...i miss making fun of that courtney goeff girl cuz she looked like th eblueberry girl from willy wonka and the chocolate factory..i miss desiree and her loud ass...i miss paige and the way shje always went 'yeahhhhh'..i miss the whore days, and the mats in the room, i miss the troll..and volleyball..and the shuttle cock. god damnit, why did i drop out...i miss skipping choir to hang out in the gym, i miss skipping gym to sit with chris in his class...i miss going into the guys gym to make everyone laugh, i miss acting with paige in the iddle of the gym...i miss the time when paige hiccuppued and got kicked out of choiur for it...i miss being a bitch too mrs zatkoff..i miss sitting in the halls cuz i walked in late to mr. carrs class. im miss messing with mr. voss...i miss germs. and trevert. i miss mike, and porter. i miss matt trudeau, and that one kid, i miss everything, and everyone, and im sitting here crying because i loved every minute of it, but at the time i never really knew how much i loved it, and then when its gone you realize things could be so much better....but its not better and i miss you guys..hugs and kisses
Kate

do i make you randy baby, do i?

2002-10-04T05:56:52Z

so...it's been quite awhile since i updated...nothing special really going on i guess...Jay snuck over last friday and stayed the night...stayed the night at matts on saturday, hung out with larry thayer who i havent seen in like 400 years...sunday i dont remember. but jay snuck over and tried to make me feel better cuz i had "cramps"...the whole week was a bore, i did nothing. i was supposed to start drivers ed on mon. cancelled until the 7th.BULLSHIT AND A HALF POINT 5. yeah i babysay tonight...didnt get paid(again) which really pissed me off cuaz that was my weekend ciggarette money. IM FUCKING PISSED. but, mommy dearest is giving me 20 bucks so i should be good, and the plans are stull on...which go as follows:
Friday:Amy is home, going to movies and spending the night, i was supposed to go see cringe with steoh but decided id rather go see amy since i see steph all the time...
Saturday:suposedly some party is going down, where we all get drunk and high and video tape with krayzie bones 'smokin buddah' playing in thew background,,,LINE ME UP FOR THAT COOL SHIT...riiiiight. my friends are dumbasses...ha but i love em...
Sunday: Same shit, Different day perhaps...yeah.

Amison came and visited me at the babysitting place...she gave me a smoke...it was so good. mmmm i need one now.

I WANT TO WATCH THE COSBY SHOW.
im watching the crucible right now, a really really good movie, i likes.

MY HOUSE SMELLS LIKE DICK. FUCK.

vulgar language makes you cool.

ALL THE COOL KIDS DRINK BLEACH.

i <3 skater boi. hahaha. BOI. why why why. shes tryin to be all cardhore. whateva man.

hole. celebrity skin. nirvana. in utero. *STOLEN STOLEN STOLEN* IM A KLEPTO.

I love this keyboard, i will make sweet love to this keyboard. goodnight.

woot finally cabel modem oct. 9th

2002-09-27T07:06:28Z

ahh no more aohell. soon soon soon.

I really am excited for this weekend, i get to go to matts house and spend the night! YAY! it's gonna be weird, not having amy there, but im sure ill live... Last weekend was goodtimes driving around for 2 hours...haha texas chainsaw massacre in the little christmas tree feild...driving down the dirt road...having fun like old times....it was great. Baking in amisons car. prank calls...goodtimes. me and matt almost got on the air, it was so funny..we ordered a vacuum cleaner. but anyways...im gonna jet....cuz i dont know what else to write....

Kate.

My mom is snppring so hardcore right now..its like...reeee reee reeee.

i love wayne and garth.

unspokendeath @ 2002-09-11T17:23:00

2002-09-11T21:43:04Z

the ghost is back again, i just seen him. i knew he would be back, and no am not a crazy person, there is a god damned ghost in my house. He has a hat on, one of those golfing ones, big black boots and fuckin he is here. i think i should nam ehim....norbert. ahh yes norbet the ghost.

im going insane.

last night was fun after the whole fight with my father. i played with martin and matt and chad. i heart chad. YAY! too bad that boy has a girlfriend=o(. me and matt and martin are going to "pop night" at the wired frog...haha, and martin is going to be enrique englasias. it shall be fun, fun i tell you, really fuckin fun!

Halloween, more then a month away, i dont know what im going to be. it is the best holiday ever. im thinking about being a vampire, dude to my obsession with them, but im not quite sure.I was going to go to indiana to go halloweening with a friend fromt here, he was going to be jack the ripper and i was going to be one of his dead whores. im not sure that will worlk out tho...Im hoping there going to play rocky horror picture show ion the theaters around halloween time...i want to dress up like them, and be all happy happy...woohoo

Today, september 11th. a "day to remeber" all i really want to do is forget. all day today there is showsupon shows of the events of last year, it is done people, please just forget about it, ye sit was tragic, but there have been many many things far more tragic in the world then this. I feel terrible because after the whole factor of 9/11 people bought things to express there pride in America, those same people who complained about everything being so shitty..now its a wonderful place to live? i think not...ahhh whatever. happy day to all.

the dog is flippin out over here man.

uhh, yes. i beilieve i did smoke a little too much oof the rock. ha. yeah alright. nice knowin ya.

I NEED TO GO SMOKE A CIGGARETTE NOW. yes, im trying to die faster. kick the nasty habit Katie, you can do it. alright bye.

shannon- tell bradley i said happy happy birthday!=o)

unspokendeath @ 2002-09-11T02:26:00

2002-09-11T06:38:25Z

Which Pee-wee character are you?

I <3 PEEWEE.

so yeah, today i went to "dinner" with my father. subway actually, he ate i didnt wasnt hungry...for 20 minutes akk i hear is how i need to get myself straight, i need to take my peircings out, i need to do this i need to do that, he says i look horrible the way i am...although he was the one who encouraged me to be 'different' and not to care anymore, and when i trake his wonderful advice, and start liking myself more, i get shit on and told i lok like a whore because of my makeup, and i need to brighten my face p nad not be so pale, and i need to take drivers training, even thoug he knows were short on money, i finally told him off...and his bitch wife, he never used to be the way he is until he married that bitch. fucking whatever, i dont even care anymore..i really dont care to talk to him...i know its a stupid thing to be pissed about, cuz some things he was right about, but the fact that i havent seen him for like 3 monthes, and all he doesn is yell at me, after i ran and yelled daddy and gave him a huge hug. i missed him more then anyone will ever know, and i was so excited to see him...but obviously he didnt care to much...but whatever.im goin now...later.

im wastin time, wastin time, wastin some more god damn time

2002-09-11T05:11:40Z

Name: Katie
Do you like it? no, its boring, and im not a boring person
Nicknames: Kate, Kay, Granny Panties, GP, moron, dumbass...
Screen names: UnseenDArkness66, urfliesdown76, pokesmot713, xxkraftykatiexx..and so on...
Age: 16
Birthday: April 26
Sign: Taurus
Location: My house, MI.
Natural hair color: Blonde
Current hair color: burgundy/blackish
Eye color: blue/grey
Height: 5'9ish
Shoe size: 10

( family )
Parents: yeah....2?
Siblings: 3 that are known, and one not known
Live with: mom and her bf...

( favorites )
Number: 7,13
Color: black/red
Day: Saturday
Month: April
Movie: jay and silent bob movies(all of them), queen of the damned, the craft, empire records..and more that i dont know of as of right now
Season: Winter and Fall
Sport: SEX. lol
Drink: Mountain DEW
Veggie: i like los of veggies, but mostly brocolli
TV Show: haha, fuckin that one marykate and ashley sow..so little time
Store: thirft stores, and hot topic
Word: HERMIE!
Animal: popsicles
Flower: daisys
place: the bowling alley

( this or that )
Me/You: us
Coke/Pepsi: coke, pepsi tastes like medicine
Day/night: Night
AOL/aim: AIM, but i have aoHELL
CD/cassette: RECORDS
Dvd/vhs: vhs
Jeans/khakis: jeans, big ones, with pockets, big pockets...
Car/truck: HARELYS. but if i must choose btween the 2..trucks
Tall/short: uhhh, yeah sure?
Lunch/dinner: Dinner
Lipstick/Lipgloss: lipgloss. unless the lipstick is balck
Silver/Gold: silver.

( the past )
What is the one thing you would change about your past?:not a thing, i have made pad choices but i figured i learned from them ,why change what makes you better?
What is the biggest mistake you've made in your life:doing this long ass survey majiggy
Last Movie you saw: reign of fire
Last thing you said: "Killing spiders should be my god damned job mom"
Who is the last person you saw?: my mom...but uhh martin?
Who is the last person you hugged?:Martin, about 35 minutes ago
Who is the last person you fought with?:The man who made me.(my father)
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?:uhh, my dad
last TV show you saw?: jeopardy
What is the last song you heard?: forsaken

( the present )
What are you wearing?: greed jeans, an ozzy tshirt and a jnco hoodie, with some rings and my spiked braclet and a pretty hemp necklace i made
What are you doing?: pushing buttons on a keyboard...
Who are you talking to?: myself
What song are you listening to?:the violin on quuen of the damned
Where are you?: in my living room
Who are you with?: my mom
Are you online?: mmmhmmm, all the time
what are you feeling? like a gotta drop a duece!
Are you in a chatroom?: No, they bore me

( future )
What day is it tomorrow?: WEDNESDAY
What are you going to do after this?: go to bed
Who are you going to talk to?: no one
Where are you going to go?: my room
Who do you wanna be with?: i dunno
What is one of your dreams: to be a songer in a band
Where will you be in 25 years?: i duno where ill be..wherever the road takes me man...keep on truckin'

( have you ever )
Drank?: hmmm....NO NEVER..haha, im a funny lady
Smoked?: what exactly? lol but yeah
Stolen?: YEAH, im a klypto
Wanted to die?: Yeah, i think just about everyone does at one point or another
Hit someone?: yeeeeeppppp

( other )
Do you write in cursive or print?: print
Are you a lefty or a righty?: Righty
What is your sexual preference?: straight
Do you have glasses or braces?: yeah i have glasses
Did you like this survey?: no its fuckin long
Cuddle or make out?: cuddle, it makes me feel..secure
Chocolate milk, or hot chocolate?: chocolate milk, best get ridder of kottonmouth
Would you wanna marry your best friend, or the perfect lover?: my best friend who is a perfect lover
Root beer, or dr pepper?: dr peeper at times, but root beers not bad either
Tea/coffee/cappuccino?: cappuccino
Mud or jello wrestling?: MUUUUDDDD
Milk, dark, or white chocolate?: milk
Vanilla or chocolate?: chocolate.
Lights on or off?: DIMMED

( misc. questions )
Do you like to talk on the phone?: njot usually, and the people who call me who like to talk are always like...bahh, and when im like i have to go there always like, well let me telll you something, and they talk for 4 more hours, and finally im like shut the fuck up and hang up
Do ya have your own phone line?: nope.
Can we have your number?: i dunno, can you??
Do you like to dance?: MOSH
Do you think cheering is a sport?: No
( in the last 24 hours, have you... )
Cried?: no.
Helped someone?: Yeah
Bought something?: yeah fritos and ciggarettes
Gotten sick?: yep
Gone to the movies?: No
Gone out for dinner?: subway?
Said "I love you"?: yeah, to chad..lol
Written a real letter? typed an email...
Had a serious talk?: yes twice
Missed someone?: Yeah
Hugged someone?: yup
Fought with your parents?: yup
Fought with a friend?: nope
( Do you..... )
Wear eye shadow?: yea
Eat with your mouth open?: Nope
If you got a tattoo, where would you get it, and where would u put it?: i would get it on my forarm, and it would be pput there, but if you mean what would i get, i AM getting a star with a shooting star off to the side
What color is your floor/carpet in your room?: ugly
What was the last CD you bought?: i beilieve it was cradle of filth...but im not quite sure if im correct..nope, it was trhe misfits
How did you spend last summer?: being a potheaded girl..
When's the last time you showered?: yesterday night
Are you tired?: not really
Are you happy?: somehwat
Are you wearing pajamas?: noo not yet
Are you talking to someone online?: nope
What is your astrological sign?: this question hasd been asked and answered already
that was a waste of time....goodbye.

I HEART CHADWIK!!! WOOOO

"I impressed my maker with my..thirst, for things"

2002-09-09T21:45:44Z

I want to be a Vampire.

I have watched Queen of the Damned about 7 times since I rented it yesterday. The first time I watched it was about 3 o'clock this morning.

I want to watch Interveiw with the Vampire right noe. maybe i'll rent that when these movies are returned.

I know my kids names now, my boy and my girl...the girl: Akasha Mahree and the boy: Damien Marius...woo i luff them.

I'm so bored...theres nothing to do and there is nobodu home to take me anywhere, what to do, what to do..i guess ill just have to sit here and update my livejournal 400 times, but thats ok, because now people have something to read, I wonder if anyon actually reads there friends list...I do, word for word, sometimes i skip over it thoug cuz people bore me, lol...anways...im going to go, finish watching my loverly movie....

Wow, what a weekend!

2002-09-09T05:22:05Z

So yeah, my friday night was very unplanned funness!! Thanks to shannon who i have missed greatly! I went over to her friends house for a party which was so muc fun, had some really great converstions with some really cool people! I never thought i could be so open with myself to people i never even met, but it was great. Hope i hang out with those people sometime again, cuz i really had so much fun! "kevin....cockslap her" lol, goodtimes, goodtimes..

Saturday was a tiring day/night...friday i went to bed around 5 in the morning and didnt sleep much, woke up at like 7:30. CAlled my mom who bitched at me for not calling her last night, which is hardcore fucked up, but went to the bowling alley hung out with steph and chad until me and steph left for her house...Nick stopped over for awhile, and then went to pick up the poeple who were going with him to bloodfest, gave him directions and what not, but he didnt make it there..=o(. Then Matt(my new cool singing buddy) came over to step[hs as we waited forever for KT to get over to stephs, first its shitty cuz her bf was gonna come now, who is really annoying and a dick to KT...so me matt ansd steph have to cram into her car...KT was supposed to be at stephs at 630...no KT until like 8, its already lamost dark out....were supposed to stop and get food, cuz were all starving, nope never did...then we get to the concert...see Mike and all the guys, gave him hug, bullshitted for a bit, you know...then i met stephs buddy GORDO...hes the lighting technician for cringe, hes awesome. Mike was intoducing him at he was like everyone give it for gordo, lol, evertyone clapped but then you hear me and steph screamin we love you gordo!! and i go "Gordos a hardcore motherfucker man!!" it was great, we made him such a happy guy! well b4 all that this bitch named katie was mackin on mike who has a girlfriend who is trhe sweetest chick in the world, and she was all moshin(katie was) and she comes and runs into me and i didnt want to mosh so fuckin, i go BAM really hartd and sent the bitch flyin!! all the guys and shit were like, i love you dude, i wa slike yeah i know..haha, but anyways.. the whole point in staying as long as we did was for the party at mikes afterwards, which was besides hearing cringe,m the highlight of the night, of cousrse since Tom is with KT we end up not going, which is shitty cuz the guys are leaving on thursday to go on tour...=o(.but yeah so we were gonna stop and get food on the way back to KT's house again, which again we didnt, so me and steoph and matt waled 3 miles in an area with drunken frat boys..had no idea where we were going, and got pizza at like 2 in the morning, we didnt get back until like 330 or 4, ate some pizza and just sat and talked for awhile, there was some trouble sleeping due to matt laughing when it got quiet...lol he cracks me up. we woke up and KT said we woujld go for breakfast after she tok a shower and everythhing, again,m no breakfast, me and steoh werer starving. so, i went back over to stephs, and just hung out for like 45 minutes, then andrew came and go t us and took us to dennys...got some food, then got dropped off at the bowling alley...went to blockbuster with mom, got quenn of the damend(again) ed gein and dahmer. plan opn watchin em tomorrow since today as soon as i plopped myself on the couch i fell asleep until about an hour ago...so yeah im wide awake, and everyone has school tomorrow so i have nobody to talk to...but all in all, i had a terrific weekend...im gonna go write steph an email.....well goodnight everyone!

mmhmm...

2002-09-06T22:57:19Z

things ae straightened out with me and amy..which is cool shit, shes supposed to be calling me tonight when shes with brandon cuz they are gonna be messed up...lol should be interesting! next weekend im supposed to maybe go up there with brandon, so thats cool, im excited, i miss that hoe.

I re-dyed my hair and dyed my eyebrows yesterday. now my haor doesnt look totally fake on me...cuz you know its gonna look not like ar eal color, its fuckin burgundy, but whatever, my eyebrowsa are like a dark brownissh black color.

Yeah, so i dunno, tomorrow is BLOODFEST! im ultra excited! lol, ultra..im a dork. i love cringe, they are such an incredible band. it makes it even cooler cuz im friends with 2 of the 4 of em, and the other 2 are sweet chickens. were going to there house afterwards for an after party, should be fun...its gonna be weird partying with the people my mom works with..lol they are gonna be aprtying with the boss's daughter!LOL! thasts great man!!

im thinkin weither or not i should do my makeuyp how i did it last night...i thouhgt it looked good, but i dont want to look like whoa whore...whatever tho, ill look how i think looks best, and if yall dont like it suck m,y dick, cuz i dont give 3 shits...

i hope my mother gives me enuff money for like 2 packs ofd smokes and some extra money so whoevers gettin alchoaul could possibly get me some jegermeister...i really would rather not drink beer, i always get sick from beer...damn it man..beer doesnt really get me drunk either..i have to have alot of it..jeger on the other hand, DAMN MAN! I say the word 'like' way to much and it makes me seem ditzy, im not ditzy,m thats the only word i can use to helop me explain things....if ya know what i mean.

I heard from Shannon(a long lost buddy) she was coming to bloodfest, i really hope she does, i miss her alot. we had so much fn that one day i went to her house.

well anyways, im gonna get going, blow drying my hair takes like 7 and ahalf hours...ahh i said like again.*slaps head* dumb ass....

well bye everyone!

...yeah

2002-09-04T20:51:22Z

I feel like a bitch after just reading what i wrote the other day....but i guess its ok, at least im not lying about my feelings anymore ey? Amy called, didn't answer the phone thouhgh, i was sleeping. I'm contemplating weither or not i should call her back. I can talk shit, but when someone finds out about it I don't know what to say...especially someone i have never really been mad at for anything ever.

I really actually feel like crying my eyes out, because she was such a good friend to me, and I can't beilive that would change because of one person.

yeah, some of you people reading this may think, oh she was youre friend dont be such a baby youloodse friends go get another one...but you don't understand, we had been like sisters since i was in kindergarten...this past summer....things changed, everything changed...I made new friends, yes, but i think i lost the one friend who i never thought i would loose....that is why i have so much anger towards the one person who i feel and everyone else feels has had the bigest affect on the friendships we have and could have had, or lost even..its bullshit and im sitting here crying like a little whiny baby because I was a bitch to HER because of what I said in that last entry, or that comment I told Katie to show her...

I don't know what to say to her when i call...am i supposed to be like, hey whats up, or be like, hey im sorry...what the hell am i supposed to say...this is so terrible...i can't even undertand why im so worried, shes in college, 3 hoursd away, but i feel like shit for what i said still, ic ant talk to her like i cvould any other time...this is different, this is the worst way to hear from someone is when im sure shes either pissed off or upset...really upset, i mean i would be both..but i dont know, now i know shits gonna happen and people are going to get really pissed at me, and because i finally stood up and said what i felt needed to be said, people are gonna turn on me...but whatever then they honestly didn't care to be my friend anyways....fuck.....im gonna call her, ill update some more later im sure...

unspokendeath @ 2002-09-03T00:58:00

2002-09-03T05:05:16Z

this entry has been deleted due to the feelings of some people who i never meant to intenntionally hurt....

oh dear...

2002-08-31T23:32:59Z

*sigh* im tired.

stress stress stress.

CHRISTINA AGUILERA IS A GIANT SLUT.

unspokendeath @ 2002-08-29T00:12:00

2002-08-29T04:22:22Z

ok so things arent as peacful as they shouold be....im constantly in a shitty mood when im home.

theres really only one person who can make me happy, and that person is never around. I wish things were different, i wish people were different....I wish i didnt have to put up with this bullshit anymore.

sorry i lied to you i guess, it wasnt my intentions to hurt you, i just tried to make it better.

*MiSErY*